I am sick.

The runny nose, the watery eyes, the sore throat, the headache with the kuh kuh kuh kuh kuh of the constant coughing... oh and who can forget about the fatigue.

I have a puff ball looking thing... I thought it was a pimple... on my eye...? Interestingly enough, the doctor stared at it for a while and told me three things that could happen...

1. It would just go away.  Good one.
2. It would get larger and larger (perhaps cover my eye) and then pop! goes the weasel (pimple?)!
3. It would get larger and then stop growing... and then it will turn into a knot?! And... I would have to... CUT IT OFF!  Ouch.

Ah the fall of a man!   Haha, XD

I am still alive, and breathing, barely.

- A. Wong doesn't like to play with Donkey Kong

A September entry.  I just received a reminder to post up this entry.  An alarm clock, gotta love it, haha.

Spring gently strokes the ear, summer rustles the hair, in the colour dyed by autumn, standing still in winter.
We were helpless, searching for a way, the wings to tomorrow which we could fly with only by ourselves

Shaking, being shaken, till the time I flap my wings

The dream which blossomed in spring is seen in summer, thinking and pacing around it in autumn, searching for the answer in winter
I imagined willfully flying through the image of the future which I drew

Shaking, being shaken, till the time I flap my wings

Shaken, because of this small thought which sketched the dream in the skies,
I don't want to finish this dream, words aren't needed anymore

There are times when you just can't really explain the feelings in you. Sometimes, it's something that makes you happy.  Sometimes, it's something that makes you sad.  At times, confused; at times, angry.  And at times, all the feelings all at once

Mixed feelings, I call it.  Somehow, I have these mixed feelings.  When I stepped out of bed every morning now, I gaze at the window and wonder, what is going to happen.  There's a common proverb in Chinese, actually, it is a proverb in many Asian countries - "When the boat reaches the harbor, it will be straight" - either way everything will be fine.  That's something that I base a big part of my life on.  Everything will be fine, eventually.

At this moment, somehow, I don't feel like everything will be fine.  Even though, I know in my head that eventually, things are going to be good, things are going to be great.  But right now, it's just not fine. 

A lot has happened.  Things that made me sad, things that made me happy, things that made me angry, things that made me frustrated.  But nothing compare to what I'm feeling right now.  In fact, all of those things are what I'm feeling, and even more than that.  There are just a lot of things going through my head.  Thousands, every second.  And yet, at this moment, I don't know what to say.

But I finally realized what it was.  Going away to college.   Even though it was a simple fact to me, that I'll go to college after I graduate.  It never actually hit me that I'm no longer in Oxford.  That it is something I'm going to leave behind and when I return to it, I most likely, won't be the same person that had been there as a student.  It is a joint of a wave sorrow, with a degree of frustration, a tint of fright, and a surge of excitement.  But it's a step forward.

There are just so much that I want to say and do, before I take this step.  Time is ticking and it is running out.  I'm counting the days, the hours, the minutes, the seconds.  And I wonder if not doing these things that I know that I want to do and not being able to will make me regret how I had spent the three months before I moved on.

Now to put a close to this entry, I ask this question:

What if we had flown through the skies, would we have been happy?

And still the scenery is evergreen....  Nankarunaisa.

- Going through the alphabet... I just realized how many wrong words sounds like Wong...

It's that time again.  July entry, haha.

You know the weather is seriously really weird.  It's like one day it will feel like fall and then the next day it feels like hot summer and some days are just in between.  California weather... lol...  Lately, I've been trying to hang out with as many of my friends as possible.  Of course, hoping to see at least all of them once before August hits. August is vacation month/moving in month.  A lot of people are leaving in August...

For those whom I still haven't seen yet... Let's hang out!  Those whom I've hung out with, let's hang out some more!  Lol, yes that means you.

I've been bowling a lot this summer.  I think I'm addicted to it, lol.  It's like this urge to just pick up a bowling ball and roll it out.  One thing you don't expect in bowling is that you put a tremedous amount of stress on one leg and your fingers.  I realized that after a couple days of bowling.  My left leg feels painful whenever I step on it.  It got a bit better though, the pain lasted for a day or two.  I think it is because the finish for bowling relies on your body putting all the weigh on one left after bowling the ball out.  You don't feel it at that moment but afterwards it comes to you. 

I saw Ratatouille the other day.  I'm not sure if I spelled it right, but heck it was a pretty cool movie.  I liked it a lot.  My friends (This one guy, this one girl, this other girl, another girl and that other girl) and I had some Boba Loca before going in the theatre, and after the movie we ate at fat burger.  I swear, you guys are so gay... I haven't had fast food in like... forever, lol, broke my steak =/  That place was pretty cool though, no wonder Jawor likes it. 

These two days seem to be kind of weird for me somehow... the days themselves aren't weird, but I just feel restless sort of lol, and always trying to find something to occupy myself with. 

Aside from that, lately, I've been getting into a lot of Bump of Chicken stuff.  Lol, their music is really awesome, especially this song called Diamond that I am currently playing on my computer as well as learning to play on the guitar (I've got most of it down, I just have to make a little adjustment here and there so it sounds better).  I think I might get an electric guitar too... A lot of stuff that I want to play are electric...

I also started listening to Alice Nine.  I always thought they were bad, not terrible bad, but just bad.  And for some reason, I came across them on this one xanga with a list of Alice Nine and Dir en Grey songs on the player.  I was going to listen to Dir en Grey ones, but I was like whatever and this Alice Nine song came on.  I was like... this is actually okay.  The songs, got better and better.  I really like this song called Akatsuki, that was actually the first one on the playlist.  There's this one called Blue Planet that was pretty amazing (So good that I looked it up on YouTube) and Fantasy (Looked this one too.)  Alice Nine's lives are extremely nice.  I kind of wanted to go see them now, haha (Wish I went to JRR).  To that one person with the Xanga with that one playlist... You've got to add The Final and Kodou by Dir en Grey on your list =)

My orientation is on August 6th... From then to the 8th... Great.. I have a test on the first day.  What a terrible way to start off, haha.  I've been taking this course called Alcohol Edu online lately.  I was ready to blow it off as one of those stupid requirements thing, but I really got into it.  The stuff on there are really interesting about the Frontal Lobes, Hippocampus, Cerebellum, Brain Stem and all those brain stuff and how alcohol affects them. 

Anyways, back to practicing Diamond... Maybe I'll post another one before August hits, lol... Or I might get slaughtered...

- "Ching Chong A. Wong?"  "No, I'm British."